I"M A BITCH..!

I just love the lyrics to this song, as i think it describes Me to the T and maybe alot of Women on the whole in genrel; and thats why time and again i keep posting it on my blog! So here it is again- Enjoy!

I hate the world today

Youre so good to me

I know but i can't change

Tried to tell you

But you look at me

Like maybe i'm an angel

underneath Innocent and sweet

Yesterday i cried

Must have been relieved to see

The softer side

I can understand

How you'd be so confused

I dont envy you

Im a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

I'm a Bitch,

i'm a lover

I'm a child,

I'm a mother

I'm a sinner,

I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell,

I'm your dream

I'm nothing inbetween

You know you wouldnt want it any other way

So take me as i am


This may mean


You'll have to be a stronger man


Rest assured that


When i start to make you nervious

And I'm going through extremes






Tomarrow i will change


And today wont mean a thing




Just when you think,




You got me figured out


The season's already changing


I think it's cool,


You do what you do


And dont try to save me








I'm a bitch,


I'm a tease


I'm a goddess on my knees


when you hurt,


when you suffer


I'm your angel undercover

I've been numb,


im revived




Can't say I'm not alive




You know i wouldn't want it anyother way




We are angels,


we are devils,


we are weak,


we are strong.


We need you,


we need no one.


We are women.

IF ONLY~

if only~

living in hope

that you would notice me

just a glance

would do me good

praying to god

that you would like me

just a crush

would make me happy

wishing to stars

that you would cherish me

just a little

would make me blissful

blowing to winds

that you would love me

just this life time

would make this pain worthwhile

Good People

“It’s not often life throws good people at you - but when it does, you’ve got to make sure you make the most of it.”

- Corey B

Deception

lull me into a beautiful dream

leave me with a false sense of security

shelter me from the truth with lies

show me the loveliness of you

the dreams that i once had were yours

here i am returning them to you

so, please i beg of you,  please

stay close to me now

or at least until i cease to exist

that wouldn't be long till then

fading into infinity i feel myself

life that i cherished ,love that i gave

you left them there to die

if it's not too much to ask

if it's all right with you

do stay here awhile more

but don't wake me up

from this fantasy of mine

i would die knowing

that you aren't really here !

What would you not change for love?

love should not become another tool to control women. As an adult, a woman should remain free to marry anyone from any religion. And if she chooses to, let her convert.

But my personal opinion is that love and marriage should not require either of the partners to stop being who they really are… simply because they can’t.



1. I feel one should not need to convert to a partner’s religion.


2. I feel one should not need to change names or surnames. It is inconvenient and unnecessary, but even if it was convenient, it’s based on the principal of ownership of another human. So the very premise, in my opinion, is wrong.


3. I feel one should not need to change feelings towards one’s own parents and family. Unfortunately girls are sometimes expected to do this; especially in joint families… Marriage should add to your life, not take away from it!


4. Friends and family are a support system, nobody should be asked to give them up. Also isolation of the victim is common in cases of Domestic Violence. (Now, the Domestic Violence Act has made it an offence to stop a woman from meeting her family).


5. One should not need to change one’s Personality. For example, no extrovert should be asked to become an introvert. That’s controlling.


Everybody, including women, must have some interests of their own, and some me-time, so if she is asked to stop interacting with the world (to protect her!), she better watch. Insecurity and mistrust are not good signs. And…

6. Trust must include faith in and respect for her judgement. Giving in to the spouse’s unreasonable wishes does not improve a relationship. Such controlling might be the beginning of Domestic Violence – verbal or physical.



7. The woman should be trusted to decide how she must dress, and not her husband’s grandmother’s cousin’s daughter’s brother in law!!


Do you think we should need to change ourselves for love or marriage? And how much? Is it true that we can find happiness in our partner’s happiness (after the first few months of a relationship), or do we need our own happiness too?!??

Jaded

Jaded

This despair that i've grown to love

this loneliness that i've grown fond of

this life that i've grown to hate

this being that i've grown to be

drifting away further and further

away from the reality that hurt

drowning deeper and deeper

below the shimmery glint of revenge

who is this i see standing in front of me

with sad brown eyes and a sad crooked smile

who is this i see touching my face

with cold cold hands and icy stare

don't keep me here anymore

don't chain me to this golden cage

don't tempt me with a brighter future

don't blind me with hopes of love

merely an illusion of being

to disguise the hatred within

merely an imaginary of life

to hide the ugliness inside

don't turn a blind eye to me

don't shut your ears away

don't run away from my truth

don't kill what's left of me

Random Thought Of The Day

You're free to leave me but just

 don't deceive me.

Logical imagination

“Logic will get you from A to Z; imagination will get you everywhere.”

- Albert Einstein

Taylor Swift - Love Story lyrics

We were both young, when I first saw you.

I close my eyes and the flashback starts-

I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.

I see you make your way through the crowd-

You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-

And my daddy said 'stay away from Juliet'-

And I was crying on the staircase-

begging you, 'Please don't go...'

And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,

It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.

We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-

So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.

Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,

And my daddy said 'stay away from Juliet' -

but you were everything to me-

I was begging you, 'Please don't go'

And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.

I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.

It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult, but it's real.

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.

It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.

Wondering if you were ever coming around.

My faith in you was fading-

When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.

I keep waiting, for you but you never come.

Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.

I love you, and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress

It's a love story, baby just say... yes.

Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

'cause we were both young when I first saw you

Meaning of Navaratri by Guruji..

Navaratri- Why celebrate it?

Sri Sri Ravi Shankar



As we take nine months in our mother’s womb, before we are born, we take these nine days to go back to our source. These nine days are to be spent in meditation, Satsang, silence and knowledge. During this period, the first three days are for Kali, the Adhishthata (the Authority) of Tamo Guna, the next three days for Maha Lakshmi, the Adhishthata of Rajoguna and the last three days are for Saraswati, the Adhishthata of Sata Guna. And when we move from Tamo through to Satva, Victory happens; victory over our own negative tendencies, like RaagDvesh (cravings-aversions), Raktabijakshur (inherent ‘tendencies in our DNA. can be changed only through Satsang) and Dhumralochan (the laziness of Mahishasur, the bull (thick-skinned); one who’s eyes are clouded with small-mindedness)


Upavaas (what is normally understood as Fasting) actually means ‘sitting close’; close to the Guru. And when you are close to the Guru, the Self, you are in so much bliss, that you forget to eat or drink! You don’t feel Hungry or thirsty. And now that has become a false notion about’ Upavaas’. We relate it to fasting. It is good, to fast once in a while, for a day or two. However, it is not worth eating fried foods in the name of Upavaas. Eat fruits. The main thing is to listen to the body. Give it a break from the daily grind of digesting three meals, etc. When you attend to the body and it is rested, the mind also becomes peaceful. You do not have to fast to please GOD. Do it to purify your body and mind. Observing silence is also good. Everyone need not observe silence, avoid useless talks. Ardha Maun (partial-silence) is fine. Keep silence with a smile and Upavaas






happens. At the end of the nine days Aradhana, let there be newness in us. Nav also means new. These are nine new nights. Krishna used to do a lot of Devi Pujas during Navaratri. He said; “I take a dip in my own Prakruti (nature), and come out to create new”. So, take a dip in your own nature and come out fresh and new. The more we go deep within ourselves, the more this Creation rejoices in celebration. These Yagnas have all the aspects of life so beautifully covered within them. It comprises of dance, music, food, celebration and everything. Not a single aspect of life has been left out. Do not let any complaints happen. Complaints drag you out; keep you rooted in the mud outside. Drop it all with a smile and go within. Spirit is invoked during, these nine days. And like the nine months of formation spent in the womb, spend these nine days within and form a new spirit. Then all bad karmas and impressions are washed away. Navaratri purifies the individual consciousness and then the universal consciousness, thence the entire creation.


Devi or Shakti is the Mother of Nature. She is Nature Itself. The whole world is

Her body. Mountains are Her bones. Rivers are Her veins. Ocean is Her bladder.
Sun & moon are Her eyes. Wind is Her breath. Agni is Her mouth. She runs this world show

Begin strong.

“Begin strongly. Have a theme. Use a simple language. Leave a picture in the listener’s mind. End dramatically.”

- Winston Churchill

RAREST THING..

Rarest thing.








“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”

- Oscar Wilde

Taylor Swift - A Perfectly Good Heart lyrics

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?


Maybe I
Should've seen the signs
Should've read the writing on the wall
And realized

By the distance in your eyes
That I would be the one to fall
No matter what you say
I still can't believe

That you would walk away
It don't make sense to me, but


Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?


It's not unbroken anymore...
How do I get it back the way it was before?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now?

Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break...


Why would you wanna break it?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?


Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

How To Stay Young

Some of the information posted here i have copied from the internet, and some views, thoughts and opinions are of my own.


1.  Throw out nonessential numbers.  Throw them out of your mind, this includes age,
      weight and height.( Age is just a number; and as for the other two go, its all about the
     " attitude" , and the way you carry yourself!) Let The docter worry about them. thats why
       you pay him/ her! 

2.   Keep only ceerful friends around you. They act as balm , to soothe and comfort you in times
      of distress. Its important to have a good circle of friends to motivate you, encourage you,
      lift your spirits up, rather that the grounchy ones who only pull you down!

3.  Keep learning new things everyday. The brain should be in active mode and one must
      keep feeding information to it from time to time. Knowledge is wealth; and its limitless!
     Learn anything! It could be about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever....but the
     key point is to remember...Never to let the brain idle; for as the saying goes
    "An idle mind is the devel's workshop". And that devel's name very well can be ALZHEIMER'S!

4.  Enjoy the simple things in life. Have you noticed that its the small and little things in
     life that bring us the most pleasures, rather that the expensive gifts that money can buy!?
     Learn to treasure those small moments; it could be anything from being with nature,
     to having your little bunddle of joy in your arms when you come back from a hard day's work
     at home, to being with your loved ones and family members, taking time to smell the roses
     so to say...etc etc cherish these moments, they may seem small but make wonderful magical
     memories!

5. Laugh often, loud and long. laugh untill you gasp for breath! Not only does it burn
    callories, it looks good on you/your face! It holistically makes you feel good from
    inside and outside. :)

6.  The tears happen in life, they come, endure, grieve and move on.  Dont hold on to
     them and the bad memories attached or accociated with those tears! You have to
     learn to let go......because the only person who is with us our entire life; is-
     " OURSELVES" . Be grateful to God that you are 'Alive' , Be ALIVE while
     you ARE alive!

7.  Sourround yourself with what you love, and the things you love doing.
     whether its you family, pets , your keepsakes, listening to your favorite music
     having plants, hobbies...or whatever. 
     Remember your home is your refuge. A place where you can call your Very Own,
     your "Haven", so it should be comfortable, inviting, cozy, and most of all wher you can
     totally relax and forget about the worries of the world once you step into it! ;)  

8.  Cherish your health.  If it is good, preserve it. If  it is unstable, improve it, if it
     is beyound what you can improve, get Help. After all the most famous saying says it all
     " Health IS Wealth" !!! and if you are not in a good condition itself; all the said above
     would be futile anyway!

9.  Don't take guilt trips in your life. Feeling guilty is the worst feeling in the world! It
      eats away your spirit from within.
      take a trip to the mall instead, or go to the next country, or a foreign country perhaps?
     But NOT to where the guilt is!

10.  Tell the people you love How much you love them at every oppertunity.
       Bacause once they are gone they are gone forever! Unfortunatly we only realize
      the importance and value of someone or something once they have gone or out of
       sight!

And always remember-

" Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,

   but by the moments that take away our breath away"

For Someone Special!

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY!!!!

THIS IS FOR YOU!!! YOU KNOW THAT DONT YOU???! :) ;)

Two Dark Lost Souls....

  His eyes where of darkness Reflected from his soul  
  His heart had been shattered
  Left broken and cold
 He was a warrior of evil.

  Fighting for what was wrong.
  He came to me one night
  When he heard my deadly song
  Under the red moon we met

  Fell into an icy embrace
  It sent shivers up my spine
  Just to stare upon his face

    Using his power to control me

    All I could do was stand still
    He kissed my lips
  Sending fear through me
 Making my mind race

 As he watched my body
 I glared at him
 Fire in my eyes
 He saw right through

 My helpless disguise
 My smile made him afraid
 He thought he was in control
 My eyes and hair turned black

 Darkened like mine
 and his soul My skin went pale
  Like the moons glow
 And in the darkness

 My true colours did show
stared at each other
 Moving closer than before
 He saw in my eyes

 I was not afraid anymore
 Once again he kissed me

This time I kissed him back
 Two dark souls together
Both evil and black

I Am An Emotional Eater!

Whenever I am bored or anything, I go straight to food. It hits when I am worried, anxious, or sad.I indulge in mindless eating, I'm not obese but have started putting on weight in the past couple of years, and it sure ain't making me feel good right now! :(


Here is some information on Emotional  [that everyone should know about]
                       Eating/Binge 


 Emotional Eating - using food to escape or to make yourself feel better.


Emotional eating means that you eat for some other reason than health or nutrition.


This sounds pretty innocent, but Emotional Eating is actually what makes you break your diets. It's what makes you feel intense cravings for particular foods. It's what makes you overeat.


It causes food addiction. It's even responsible for binges and yoyo diets.
Chances are, if you've ever struggled to lose weight and failed, or regained weight
back after some success, you've struggled with Emotional Eating.


You already know how to lose weight. You know that if you eat less and exercise more eventually you’ll see the pounds come off. What’s getting in your way? Why do you usually regain the weight you lost?


The answer to all these questions is the same “Emotional Eating.” Simply defined, emotional eating means you eat to satisfy emotional hunger; it means you use food for comfort or as a way to cope with life; and it means you eat for reasons other than what your body needs.


Whenever you reach for a boredom-breaking snack despite your commitment, or whenever you eat to quell anxiety, that’s emotional eating. Whenever you binge after a fight, or double up on portions because your day turned sour, that’s emotional eating. Whenever you feel that sharp craving for your favorite food, that’s emotional eating.


When we eat during these times while on a diet, we believe the diet doesn’t work or that we lack self control and then look for the quickest way to lose weight (fasting/diet pills, ect) after eating all we can since we already messed the diet day up.


Remember that emotional eating plays a big part in why we don’t continue dieting and why we regain lost weight and why we binge today and start a new diet tomorrow.


                        


Tips to curb the emotional eating habbit/ bindge


Why Are You Eating?
The first step to taking control of your eating is to figure out what triggers emotional eating for you. Do you eat more at work because of stress or boredom? Do you eat more at parties or other social situations because you're nervous or anxious? Do you eat when you're bored or lonely?
For many of us, emotional eating is such an ingrained habit, we're not even aware we're doing it. The following tools can help you keep track of your eating to give you a clearer perspective on your eating habits:


 Once you start getting a deeper understanding of your eating habits, you can work on ways to cope with your feelings other than reaching for food. Just a few ideas include:

• Excercise. It helps relieve stress and anxiety, generates energy and it makes you feel good about yourself.
• Get in Touch. Talking to a friend or an online support group may give you the support you need to avoid reaching for.
• Drink Water. We often mistake thirst for hunger and filling up with water may help you avoid extra calories.
• Take a walk. Walking is good for your body, but it's always a great way to practice moving meditation and work through problems.
• Listen to your favorite song. Music can be a great way to sooth yourself when you're stressed, bored or tired.
• Drink some tea. One of my favorite ways to curb unexpected cravings is to drink herbal tea. It fills me up and adding a little honey often satisfies my sweet tooth. .

• Try  yoga. Relaxing your body and mind is a great way to take a step back from big emotions before you do something you might regret
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•  Make your own list of ideas and work on trying at least one new one each week as you start dealing with your emotional eating habits. Changing bad habits, especially bad eating habits, takes time, patience and diligence but it's worth it to get control of your eating and learn how to handle your emotions without food.
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YOU WILL SEE, THROUGH MY EYES....

When you look into someone's eyes, you can see everything.
You see emotions and their journey.
Their heartbreaks and their fears.
Their memories, maybe even eternity.

Now, look into my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Can you see the darkness,
That lives deep within me?

Can you see the light,
That has faded so dim?
Or how about all my regrets,
And how weak I am?

Can you see my soul,
As it's begging for help?
Or all the loved one's I've lost,
Can you see how I felt?

Can you see all my haunting dreams?
Or all the secrets locked in my heart?
I'm trying to put back together this puzzle of life,
Can my eyes tell you how I start?

Can you see the days of my loved ones' funeral?
Do you see all the tears that fell from my eyes?
How about all the pain it brought?
Or the way my shoulders shook from how hard I cried?

Can you see all the happiness I wish I could feel?
Or all the visions running through my mind?
What about all the truth I desire?
But can never find.

Can you see the visible lies that have broken my spirit?
And the pain that always seems to find me?
My eyes tell you all of this,
Just take a glance into them, and you will see.

Through my eyes,
I have told you my diary.
Now, look into the eyes of the person next to you,
And tell me what you see.

ART CAN HEAL...

There are so many things that can heal the wounded heart...
Reading a good book, fiction or non fiction.Many women still read Jane Austen, her novels are well written but is a wonderful way to escape from the real world for a while, to get lost in fantasy, even though her characters resemble real people, that is why she is such a requested author in this age and era, she painted a real situation and real women problems.Also art is a good way to escape to another world, is good to heal, it illuminates one's soul.

Movies are also very important! They can encourage a wounded soul to strive in a struggling world, it can give hope and soothe the heart, that is why so many women see romantic films! Its a way to feel better and we do need to feel better in this caotic world filled with hate and anger.
Also dancing is a good healer, many people dance to create a new world, to feel better physically; and emotional dancing is a great therapy.
Many different sorts of art forms are healers.
Literature as well. Singing, music and sports too!

So many people are wounded but sometimes people who have it easy don't stop and think about the lonely, the sick and those in need...

How about you?, are you in need of love???

Ignorance was/ Is bliss!

Bless my heart

My head was in the clouds

Sealed away

Ignorance was bliss

Only the ground

Could stop my fall down

All it took was the truth

To wipe the smile from my lips

Time and again.

The pain made her weak, and fearful to live another day,

it grew stronger, overpowered her, and washed her away.

She prayed for belief in the fantasies of relief,

She held on to better memories, though they only brought her grief.

You Come And You Go Away

You come and go away

Each time you take away

More of my heart and hope of better days

You come and make my dreams reality

Only to leave me with a broken soul and half my sanity

You come with the warmth of your smile

Telling me everything will be okay and it is, because you're there

But then you're gone vanishing into the air

Nothing's the same no more, nothing's okay

It just gets worse each time..

You come and go away.....

THE ROSE

Its only a tiny rosebud-
A flower of God's design
But i cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.

The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I-
The flower God opens so sweetly,
In my hands would fade and die.

If i cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?

So I'll trust in him for his leading
Each moment of everyday,
And I'll look to him for his guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.

For the pathway that lies before me
My heavenly Father knows-
I'll trust him to unfold the moments
Just as he unfolds the rose.

Just something to ponder on.....everything is God's will, leave it up to him....
the sun will shine through soon!

HEAD OR HEART?

Your head or your heart

which one should be listened to

they both make sense

and they both just want the best

should you keep trying

should you stop crying

could your heart be fooling you

could your head be lying

It's a risk we have to take

at one time or another

rely on the logic

or rely on emotion

either one will choose your devotion

I conclude that your heart

is the winning choice

if you can handle the pain

of less sun and more rain

LIFE'S PARADOX....

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers,
wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses
and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more
experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, getup too tired, read too little,

Watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions,
but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom and hate too often

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life
not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have
trouble crossing the street "one way" to meet a neighbour.

We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things but
not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.

We write more, but learn less. We plan more but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We have built computers to hold more and more information, to produce
more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men character,
steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses,
but broken homes.

REMEMBER, spend some time with your loved ones,
because they are not going to be around forever.
REMEMBER, say a kind word to someone who looks
upto you in awe, because that little person will soon grow
up and leave your side.
REMEMBER, to give a warm hug to the one next to you,
because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a penny!
REMEMBER, to say "i love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it!
REMEMBER, to hold hands and cherish the moment for
some day that person will not be there again!

Give time to love, Give time to speak, Give time to share
precious thoughts in your mind.

' Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away'.

OPEN UP...

keeping things inside does not make them any better. infact holding on to secret fears, secret feelings and secret fears makes them seem alot worse than they probably are. when one keeps things on the inside, the weight of it all can tear you up, hold you down, push you into situations that donot serve your best interests. Holding on to things can cause all sorts of disease, chemical and emotional imbalance, complete confusion and plain old despair!
When you have alot going on inside, you must find some way to let it out. you can talk about it. you might cry about it..if you are alone you can shout about it! You can run it out, walk it off, or go to the gym and work it out. You can call a helpline, a hotline or a prayer line, but you must let someone know what is going on inside of you. It is tempting to eat about it, drink about it, or blow it up in smoke. But a better strategy i think is to "WRITE" about it!
Each of us comes to that point when we must trust someone enough to open ourselves up for review and examination. It's not always easy! It is a challenge to admit or acknowledge your own faults. It is even more difficult to accept that we have made some costly mistakes, poor decisions and bad choices. For some reason it seems we don't want people to know we are HUMAN. BUT WE ARE!!! We cannot hide what we feel forever.
It is therefore essential to our sense of wellbeing that we find a way to open up and let someone know what is going on inside.
Untill today, you may have been holding on to secret thoughts and feelings. You may have been afraid to open yourself up to outside scrutiny.
JUST FOR TODAY, BE WILLING TO RELEASE THOSE THINGS STORED IN YOUR HEART AND MIND THAT ARE CAUSING YOU DISCOMFORT!

Back!!!!

I'm back again in the blog/ blogging world!!!!

I Sure missed being here!