FRIENDSHIPS DYING....

Friendships

Dying...

Friendships online are often fleeting,

Made and lost without even once meeting.

How many friends from online have I lost

I haven't kept count nor figured the cost.

Some depart, spouting bluster and rage,

Others as quietly as the turn of a page.

Many return though I couldn't say when,

While the rest are never heard from again.

For the loss of some, the fault is my own,

An unkind word spoken and I'm left alone.

Some friends turn away for no reason at all.

I'm puzzled and hurt when they shun my call.

Scores of friends are forever lost to me

Since the systems we called ceased to be.

And more than once, I've had friends die.

I can't forget them; I don't even try.

So take a moment during your time online

And be aware, though there's no outward sign.

That sound you hear, that solitary crying,

Might well be the sound of friendships dying ....

A TOUCHING POEM, BY A FRIEND

WHENEVER I READ THIS POEM, TEARS START FLOWING DOWN MY FACE! MAY THIS NEVER EVER HAPPEN TO ANYONE IN REALITY, MAY NOONE HAVE TO FACE THE PARTING OF THEIR TRUE LOVE IN SUCH A TRAUMATIC MANNER!!!!

We were out for walk

when ...
I turned her way
Your not gonna like it
but I have to say
Her face went pale
and she put up her guard
Knowing my news
would hit her hard

I said I can't love you,
I'm sorry, I tried
It was her left eye that teared,
but her heart that cried
She said I hate you
and she turned and ran
She looked back and yelled,
you're not even a man

I chased after her,
though she drifted from sight
I was so scared now,
concerned that she might
I got to her house,
my worst fear came true

As she stood holding the knife,
she yelled screw you
It took this moment
to help me see
That I truly loved her,
and she truly loved me

Now my love is on the edge,
and it wasn't an act
I told her I loved her,
that I took it all back
She said "it's a lie, you don't love me"
"But this kitchen knife does
and it can set me free"

I started to beg,
please honey, no
But she closed her eyes
and in it did go
It was so much pain
she couldn't stand anymore
She dropped to her knees,
then down to the floor

I ran to her body
and crouched at her side
The pain I was feeling
I couldn't hide
It was all my fault,
that my love took her life
It may as well have been me,
holding the knife

I held her hand,
and touched her face
I tried to stop the bleeding
just above her waist
The last thing she said
is forever in my mind

That I killed my true love
and that's hard to find
I told her
I loved her and I
started to cry
She turned her head away,
and silently died...

IF YOU ARE HAPPY AND YOU NOW IT....

Can it really be possible?

It's hard to see how anybody can be happy, in turbulant times like we are in currently in todays world; but think about it......

Right now how do you feel, in this moment? Content, peaceful?

There is so much going on in the world right now, that the natural reaction is how can anyone be happy. Well great philosophers, thinkers, wise and saintly men say...one can....!

You can because you are fine now. One must count on their blessings and think of that what we have and posses, focus/concentrate on the postive aspects of thier lives instead of the negative....try and tip the scale ....from "lackof",,,, to "abundance" and having more than enough!

When we feel miserable , we should look at someone or somebody or people who are less fortunate and in more miserable conditions and plights than our own! Then soon we will begin to realize......that "our" or "my" sorrow......is surely not significant enough, and that their are more important things, people, situations, topics..etc...to think and worry about, than our own little /petty problems!

THINK.............................

You have a roof over your head, food in your stomach!!!

You have the basics taken care of. It doesn't mean you've turned off from the cares of the world, no,! but that ..what you've got, you're content with.

The Choices we make in life.....

Does it really matter to be financially free, but still unhappy?

I don't need things to be happy.

I need experiences, and good people around me.

I need to have a good foundation to build my happiness on.

I need to know how to recover and regain my sense of myself when I stumble.

Material things aren't going to leave me fulfilled.

I can't chase those things.

Sure, I may want something occasionally something.

But that's not what I want to chase.

It's a dead-end road.

There are places I need freedom,

and places I need stability.

They just aren't where most people are.

When Near and Dear ones, And the People you Love and Care about ,Hurt....

I am sure there is nothing harder in this life than seeing someone you love feel hurt.

I wish I could take your hard times, and make them easier.

I wish that I could take the hurt that you feel, and absorb some of it.(Maybe we could go somwhere together and get rid of it, throw it all away).

I wish I could take your trying situation, and will you into a happier one.

You have given me, and continue to give me, the strength I need to get past my own hurts. You've been such a source of comfort and peace.

I am where I am because you were careful with me.

You never pushed me, you just led me (gently) away from the difficult things that consumed me...I want it to be easy for you.

But you too are subject to pain, and I don't want you to be.

I want your life to be as resiliant and beautiful as you are.

Tonight I will pray until i can't keep my eyes open.

I will pray for the same thing again and again.

I will pray that people who've helped and loved so many people, will be granted an easier path. One that is more tolerable and serene.

I will make deals with you, God.

I will promise to be so much better, if you could please make things easier for them.

They don't even know how amazing they are.

They just think of it as their job to be a safety net, and yet it's not.

They are pieces and parts of angels who pick up those around them who are falling

.

Please know that the world is a better place because you grace us with your presence.

To all of my 'angels' please know that you mean the world to me (and to so many others...)

'God has not called us to see through each other, but to see each other through.'

The soul

The soul is capable of things the body can't always complete.
It's important to keep the soul open and ready to receive gifts known and unknown,
and be ready to give them out.

Internal Injury

When The Dust Settles...

Allowing the dust to settle, I want to help, to heal, to repair.
To give and to take. Through my imperfections, this is what I seek.

THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY TO MAKE IT BACK!

When you come to a bump in the road, how do you react? Mechanically?

You can, but you better make sure your mechanics are good. Sure, a wave of panic comes, but it never lasts. It shouldn't last long. Then you can start to recover. Your foundation is solid, you know where to turn and how to start the process of recovery. It always seems daunting at first. And it's a long road back. But you can come back.

When U Wish Upon A Star...

When it seems like the whole world is caving in on you, it's hard to find hope. Crushed under the weight, you look for any sign of daylight, any life preserver to cling to. Then little by little, you dig and dig, clawing your way through. Sometimes the hole looks like it's closing, but you keep digging, because daylight's there--you know it. And then, a breakthrough. You're out, on our feet, relieved and looking back at the perilous journey you survived. And thankful you made it.

The Things You Love.....

Is it possible for something you love to hurt you?

I'm not talking about the love between people (another topic for another time).

A job, a hobby, a car, whatever.

Something more inanimate.

You sink everything you have into it, make sacrifices for it, to the point it becomes part of you. But somewhere down the line, you realize there's something amiss. You're having trouble pinpointing it, but there's something that's wearing on you, and you can't seem to find it. Then you step away from what you love for awhile.

And your weariness lifts away. You wonder, was the thing I love making me weary? How can it be? How can what I enjoyed be causing me grief?

Something has been, and maybe you've found it. Now what? can you really, seriously step completely away from the thing you love?

Or is there a way to come to terms with it, so you can move forward?

Awake Again!

I don't want to go through life asleep. I feel like I've done that for the past couple of years. From this blog, to the notes I write myself, to the wonderful selfmotivating as well as all inspiring spiritual books i read, to the songs i write in my notebook and sing, to the yoga and meditation [i try very hard to keep up to though! ;) ] i do...; i feel awake....i feel bursts of creative energy coming forth. And it feels good, really good!
I don't want to fall asleep again.

Changing....

Last night, before I went to bed, I went to close the curtains to my window, and noticed how quiet it was. It was so still, barely a breeze blowing. I stared out, and It was a strange, good feeling,that envoloped me..., one of comfort.

I feel like, slowly, slowly, I'm changing...perhaps..

In what direction, is still to be determined...

STILL PURSUING....

If everybody's in pursuit of happiness, shouldn't I be too? I am, but I need to be more aware of the pursuit. What is it that I'm chasing and how am I achieving it. That simple...right?

IN PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS.....

We're all looking for happiness. We just want to be happy. And all the things we do are in pursuit of that. We chase the material goods thinking they will give us the happiness we seek. The material comes and goes. The happiness we seek, and have, within ourselves, stays. That should be the quest. Not the hot new dress,car or gadjet in town..

To a Close Friend....

Nothing fancy or ellaborate, just a small note to tell you,
that you are being thought of....on your special day...
To remind you what a wonderful person you are, and to thank you from the bottom of my heart...for being the kind of person you are...and influencing me in positive ways...and always trying to help whenever you can, for being such a gem of a friend!
Thank you for all that u have done for me, and thank you for U ! :-)
God bless u always and many happy returns of the day!

IM A BITCH....!

As the lyrics say:

I hate the world today

Youre so good to me

I know but i can't change

Tried to tell you

But you look at me

Like maybe i'm an angel

underneath Innocent and sweet

Yesterday i cried

Must have been relieved to see

The softer side

I can understand

How you'd be so confused

I dont envy you

Im a little bit of everything

All rolled into one

I'm a Bitch,

i'm a lover

I'm a child,

I'm a mother

I'm a sinner,

I'm a saint

I do not feel ashamed

I'm your hell,

I'm your dream

I'm nothing inbetween

You know you wouldnt want it any other way

So take me as i am

This may mean

You'll have to be a stronger man

Rest assured that

When i start to make you nervious

And I'm going through extremes

Tomarrow i will change

And today wont mean a thing

Just when you think,

You got me figured out

The season's already changing

I think it's cool,

You do what you do

And dont try to save me

I'm a bitch,

I'm a tease

I'm a goddess on my knees

when you hurt,

when you suffer

I'm your angel undercover

I've been numb,

im revived

Can't say I'm not alive

You know i wouldn't want it anyother way

We are angels,

we are devils,

we are weak,

we are strong.

We need you,

we need no one.

We are women.

Please stop labeling us and just learn to love us.

NEW YEAR, NEW BEGININGS....!

With the New year comes tremendous opportunity to start fresh, begin new projects and decide how we are going to change our lives for the better for the years ahead.


It's a great time to clean house, organize and set new priorities.


AND


On the list of priorities needs to be 'YOU'.


It's funny how we usually forget that one. We get so caught in the daily grind that life overflows into the next day and the 'to do' list gets longer and more complex.


When do you slow down? When do you stop and listen to yourself and your inner voice that needs recognition and attention?


What can you do for you today? Just one simple thing.





Anything.



What will it be?
How about making your self number 1?
Then plan to take 1 action per day to keep your self in the number 1 position.





For example, each morning before leaping out of bed, say to yourself,


"I am here in my body, in my life, in my world and I am my priority. I choose to care for myself with kindness and generosity. I love me."


The rest of your day may be spent meeting other's needs, your work schedule, family requirements, etc., however your intention is still in place.





You choose to be present and that is the most important present you can give to yourself.

If I am not for myself,

who is for me?

When I am for myself,

what am I?

If not now, when?

-Hillel 1st Century CE